What is it!

I am bit scared of people
I crouch in corner seeing
even the friendlier smile,
To hide it I say ,
I am good to be left alone!
I put so many filters and
Try to interpret people’s action
In my own version,
Did I say ‘yes I overthink a lot!’
When it’s time to make
Meet strangers, I shrink myself
And wish to disappear.
True right, I couldn’t even succeeded in
Being my own friend!
Oh that girl has nice hair
Should I say that !
What if she just get angry at me,
I don’t let the words leave my mouth,
I always swallow, keep it safe in my mind.
Oh I am looking cute in this hair style,
But Why she is staring at me,
I end up concluding
‘I am not good looking’,
With sigh, I change my hairstyle to normal one.
I hide myself from others in fear of rejection.
I am always a little girl
Living alone, away from others
Convincing myself with fake assumptions
Is it a protecting shield or a self-contained prison!

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Abundance vs scarcity

Everyone likes having an abundance of everything like luxury, money, comfort. But have you imagined your attitude towards it after that? Do you think you will like that the same way you ever yearned for that?

In earlier days, taking photos used to be very rare. Only during functions or on special occasions we used to take it. Do you remember how enthusiastically we were showing it to our friends, relatives when they come home? Now we have a phone and clicking selfies every now and then. But do we ever treasure it like before? Do we even care to see them like before? No, In reality As time goes on, we even forget about it.

In good old days, people were writing letters once in a while. So they thought a lot and wrote only important things. Some people even kept that letters as their memories. Now we have our wonderful handy invention ( phone) , we talk and chat a lot. We share every non trivial thing. Sometimes we even forget people around us and get lost in their virtual world phone creates. After some time do we even remember  what were we talking so interestingly?

when the phone or laptop was invented were coming into use, memory capacity of that used to be very less. We filtered a lot before saving anything in it. Now we have plenty of space, we keep every file which otherwise would have gone to trash.

Do you really think having something abundance make it important or just make us to take it for granted?

Whom are we scared of !

Stephen Hawking, one of the greatest physicists ever, is reported to have said that we live on a minor planet of a very average star located within the outer limits of one of a hundred thousand million galaxies. I have read this line in the book ‘ who will cry when you die’ by Robin Sharma. I was really moved by this thought.

In that world, we might live in a small country which narrows down a small city and then very small locality. In that, we know very less amount of people, even in that very small amount of people we see or talk to every day who can be counted as our friends or relatives. This is a very rough overview of one’s social circle. There is a very minimal possibility is their other person also consider you like this in their social circle.

Next time when you are worried about, what is this so-called society will say about anything you do, take a deep breath and ask yourself, how many people will come in that ‘society’ tag and how many people in that really matters to you or vice versa. I am sure you will get more clarity 🙂

Mystery of soap bubble

Soap Bubble gives us immense pleasure

Even when  our mind knows

‘it’s short lived’!

Sometimes heart can’t help jumping up and down

like a kid!

 

 

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Raise your hand if you are also one

Have you ever felt

Any new path reminds you of your favourite path,

Have you ever felt

Any new book reminds you of the book which was close to your heart,

Have you ever felt

Any new recipe tickles your taste bud exactly the same way as your top food list ,

Have you ever felt

Any new lyrics made you murmur some dear old song,

Have you ever felt

The confusion between taking it as blessing or throw it away as frustration

Have you ever felt

The most pressing question arising in your mind,

“Is it really happening or simply dejavu induced by imagination”

Middle class problems

“Raju what are you looking at ?” His mom’s voice floated out from the hall.

“Mom, quick Come here. I want to show you something.” He yelled happily.

His mom came out in confusion “What Raju ? Why are you yelling like this ?”

He ran and dragged his mom to the puppy standing in the road.

“Isn’t that cute mom? Shall We keep it? ” He asked, his voice shaking with excitement.

She smiled at him and said in low voice “It is cute, but… ”

He asked anxiously “But what? ”

She looked at him painfully and said ” But we can’t keep it Raju”

“Why mom? I will do everything you say. I will even finish my food quick. I will do my homework without fail. Please please allow me to keep it” He pleaded.

She smiled at his innocence and continued “That’s so sweet of you to do everything but we can’t keep it”. He began to think how to convince his mom to take that puppy.

“What’s going on? ” Came a harsh voice.

They both looked at that side. Her house’s owner was standing there glowering at them.

He got scared and hid behind his mom, she put a protective hand behind him and answered her in uneasy voice “Nothing big. We are just talking.”

She flashed a fake smile at Raju and asked “What were you telling Raju? ”

“Aunty, I was asking mom if I can keep that small puppy,” he said in a hopeful voice.

Her face got even more red on hearing that and she yelled at his mom “Didn’t I tell you while giving you home, No pets are allowed? ”

Her mom closed her eyes and replied gritting her teeth ” That’s what I was telling him. I ..”

She didn’t let her finish and continued in same harsh tone ” Better you make him understand” and left.

He saw his mom standing there with a painful look on her face but didnt understand the problem and asked slowly “We live here, Isn’t this our home mom? Can’t we keep it here”

“No Beta. We get to only stay here, not live freely here. I am so sorry We can’t have it at home. ” She finished in a deep voice. But being a kid he was still clueless.

His mom dragged him home, Raju turned around and looked at puppy until it disappeared from his sight, it was also looking intently as if questioning him,but he merely shrugged his shoulder expressing his helplessness. Sometimes being in middle class you have to save your dreams and likes also, for future, along with money!!