It hurts

It hurts when you have to make
everyone happy even when you are not,
It hurts when you have to justify
things even when you are right,
It hurts when your efforts are
gone unnoticed,
It hurts when your sacrifice never
ever been acknowledged,
It hurts when being good
never made any difference,
It hurts when things go out of hand
even after trying so hard,
It hurts when you try to act as
grown-up but being mocked.
It just hurts when your wish is
blurred by things in the name of duty!

Story challenge

He wore lipstick with shaky hand and looked outside the window lost in his own world.

Sighing he took the tissue near his face, but they weren’t enough to wipe off his tears.

He broke down and sat on the ground , her memories are haunting him day and night .

He is living with all the evidence she had left behind reminding her stay in this world. She is smiling at him as always from his wallpaper.

PS: Story starting with “He wore lipstick ”

Paranoia

From the day I remember
She is always with me like a close member.

Whenever I look at a mirror,
She whispers in my ear
Highlighting only my minus to my terror.

Whenever I try to smile at someone,
She quickly points out
How someday it might spoil the fun.

Whenever I appreciate something,
She just laughs at me and says
How I don’t even have that one thing.

Emphasizing something she makes me jealous,
Thinking it will make our relation zealous.

Whenever I try to reason with her,
She makes a sad face
And let the feeling of the guilty stir.

She says, she wants to protect me
But I am pretty sure
She wants others to neglect me.

Whenever I feel happy and content
She fills my mind with her wicked stories
And make my feelings dent.

Even when I am dying every day,
I can’t run away
Because she merely resides
Within my mind like a curse all the way.

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What is it!

I am bit scared of people
I crouch in corner seeing
even the friendlier smile,
To hide it I say ,
I am good to be left alone!
I put so many filters and
Try to interpret people’s action
In my own version,
Did I say ‘yes I overthink a lot!’
When it’s time to make
Meet strangers, I shrink myself
And wish to disappear.
True right, I couldn’t even succeeded in
Being my own friend!
Oh that girl has nice hair
Should I say that !
What if she just get angry at me,
I don’t let the words leave my mouth,
I always swallow, keep it safe in my mind.
Oh I am looking cute in this hair style,
But Why she is staring at me,
I end up concluding
‘I am not good looking’,
With sigh, I change my hairstyle to normal one.
I hide myself from others in fear of rejection.
I am always a little girl
Living alone, away from others
Convincing myself with fake assumptions
Is it a protecting shield or a self-contained prison!

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Wall around me

There is one strong wall around me

Constructed inch by inch,

When I was hurt, depressed!

Sometime question arise in my mind

Does this wall suffocate me ?

Does this make me feel alone ?

Does this wall make me confined ?

My inner mind replies,

Never ever!

It’s like protection inside mom’s womb!

Safe and sound ,

You are happily alone

Enjoying your own company,

Noone will come to hurt you,

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10 words story

“want good life” one said

“want life” Said dying person .

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“ Do you want jewel?” He asked.

“self respect” she said.

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Hard feelings to explain are feeling empty ! Yes Just Empty !

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“You should be army man” said mother.

Remembering her (late) husband.

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